as the days go by and my stomach starts to inch out, i feel my ties to this child inch out greater as well. i say “my baby…” or “our baby…” as bryce and i talk to each other about him/her. we start to make plans for the future not expecting any bumps in the road. we assume that in a few months, this baby will be here without any complications or problems. my love for this child has grown enormously and i haven’t even met him/her yet. my soul and heart are battling this fine line of emotion and ownership. my prayer so far for this child has been not to worry, and with this prayer, God has morphed it into a larger prayer of constantly giving back this child to Him. this child IS the Lord’s. He has given it to me to take care of, but first and foremost he/she is His. with this prayer of daily dedication back to the Lord i find myself in His perfect peace. no matter what happens in this season of pregnancy i can say,
“Lord for whatever You have for this child (good or bad or difficult), i can trust You, for this child is yours. You care about this child more than i and you are molding me through this process as you mold this precious child inside of me.”
Romans 5:1-5
Therefore, having been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus, through whom we have obtained our introduction by faith into this grace in which we stand; and we exult in hope of the glory of God. And not only this, but we also exult in tribulations, knowing that tribulation brings about perseverance; and perseverance, proven character; and proven character hope; and hope does not disappoint because the love of God has been poured out within our hearts through the Holy Spirit who was given to us.
whatever happens Lord…i trust You. You are my hope. I have known Your love that has been poured out within my heart. You are enough.
